Loving Myself

I'm told I should love myself.
But what if I don't deserve to be loved?
So, how filthy

am I, then? Me and who[m] else?
So, should I put on rubber gloves
before I love myself?

Can I share my grief
when my soles' life's to be proved!
Maybe I'm too filthy

to even laugh
at, too inattentive to be moved
by your poetry. That's myself

in an unlovely nutshell.
All these wounds to be salved!
All these filthy

Yokel books on my shelf!
All these DHS ghouls
threatening to devour me!Their abuse
requires me to love myself!


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